It’s not just in the last decade that they’ve ignored my pain. I spend over half of the days in the last quarter century feeling suicidal because they always ignore my pain. To this day it’s ignoring my pain that defines their choices and actions and laws justified as care. This is why the best the monsters who call themselves the human race can do is perfect the amount of time I spend feeling suicidal and being made to feel suicidal.
Today is another day like thousands of other days that I feel and face things worse than death. They’ve ignored this truth that there are things worse than death because they never stopped ignoring my pain. The existence of psychiatry doesn’t teach you about pain and what you need, what you choose, when you suffer too much.
Ignoring pain defines their attitude to brutalities that causes the severity of the suffering of suicidal individuals and the awfulness of feeling suicidal. You really do need to see clearly that psychiatric and mental health care and laws has no sense of too many brutalities whatsoever – this is how they care about this suicidal individual and every other. They ignore brutalities done to a suicidal individual because they ignore pain. The monsters who call themselves the human race simply don’t blame themselves and their brutal nature for causing the severity of the suffering of suicidal individuals and the awfulness of feeling suicidal.
So they’ve made a choice to perfect the amount of time I spend feeling suicidal and being made to feel suicidal. It’s the beauty of the minds of monsters to believe that to do this is care. This is the care in the criminalisation of the protection of assisted suicide. When care fails the objective is to perfect the amount of time I spend feeling suicidal and being made to feel suicidal – only the protection of assisted suicide protects me from this and limits the amount of time I spend feeling suicidal and stops the brutalities that perfects the amount of time I spend feeling suicidal so it’s essential to deny me this necessary and humane protection against unlimited suffering and unlimited brutalities to make certain that I feel suicidal for five thousand days and more.
They’re so uncaring and brutal by nature to suicidal individuals that they cannot recognise the true consequences and purposes of completely denying anyone the protection of assisted suicide for as long as I have been. It limits the pain no one should ever face in life if they cannot care and be humane. When they cannot solve my pain they want to make me suffer and force me to suffer and endure against my will things worse than death without mercy or limit. They want to perfect the amount of time I spend feeling suicidal and being made to feel suicidal – that’s why they deny the protection of assisted suicide.
It is brutal to be forced to suffer and endure against one’s will until I become suicidal. They are so brutal by nature to suicidal individuals that they ignore this truth because they ignore the severity of the suffering of suicidal individuals and the awfulness of feeling suicidal. They don’t comprehend it as worse than death and they really don’t care about suicidal individuals without this comprehension. They want to have no limit to the brutalities they want to do to a suicidal individual. They’ve been forcing suicidal individuals to make a suicidal individual want to die again and again throughout history and throughout the centuries they’ve tried to care about suicidal individuals and to this day. They just don’t care about suicidal individuals because they want no limit to the brutalities they can do to a suicidal individual in life so they want to make as unlimited as possible the brutalities in being forced to suffer and endure against one’s will things worse than death – that’s the care in the criminalisation of assisted suicide and the purposes of the rest of the laws that affects suicidal individuals.
It’s no doubt hard to accept death by consent but when you understand why suicidal individuals choose to use one’s own death you know that there are harms worse than death. You’ll best understand the truth that death by consent is not the worst thing possible when you become suicidal because no one taught you how to have empathy and understanding for the suicidal mind. You have to know what has to be limited and that’s the amount of time you spend feeling suicidal and being made to feel suicidal but no one taught you to understand why suicidal individuals choose to use one’s own death so you have to be made to feel suicidal then you’ll understand the truth that death by consent is not the worst thing possible.
But the monsters who call themselves the human race cannot do to you what they’re doing to me so I can only rely on my words to fix your mental incompetency. You have to get the competency to have empathy and understanding for the suicidal mind from somewhere because without neither you nor the rest of the monsters who call themselves the human race can be humane. Again, psychiatric and mental health care and laws have no limit to the brutalities that can be done to a suicidal individual – this is so far the complete opposite of a basis for care and being humane but it defines the best the monsters who call themselves the human race can do in the centuries they’ve tried to care about suicidal individuals. The pain doesn’t matter so the brutalities that causes the severity of the suffering of suicidal individuals and the awfulness of feeling suicidal doesn’t matter so they want nothing to limit the brutalities they can do to a suicidal individual – this is the complete opposite of care, compassion and being humane but it defines the best the monsters who call themselves the human race can do in the centuries they’ve tried to care about suicidal individuals and when they have any power over my life and how I feel.
It’s important to recognise that they cannot want to do anything else but perfect the amount of time I spend feeling suicidal and being made to feel suicidal. What they do to perfect the amount of time I spend feeling suicidal and being made to feel suicidal would be the true crimes in a civilisation of humane beings who never accept someone to be made to feel suicidal but this is a civilisation of monsters born and bred evil who have never stopped ignoring the severity of the suffering of suicidal individuals and the awfulness of feeling suicidal so they want no limit to the brutalities they can do to a suicidal individual. What you can and cannot bear to do to a suicidal individual affects my life and pain so much.
A short summary of why you refuse suicidality as acceptable consequences so you refuse unlimited suicidality and the unlimited brutalities necessary to achieve my unlimited suicidality
Suicidality = suicidal suffering, feelings and thoughts
Assisted suicide = intentionally killing by consent and includes self administered suicide if this is the preference of the suicidal individual
Assisted dying = assisted suicide solely for the terminally ill
What I have to say might be difficult to understand if you see mental illness as the cause of suicidality and you’ve never met anyone who is on the side of suicidal individuals. I am trying to be on the side of suicidal individuals as a suicidal individual. I’ve spent time understanding psychiatry but what I have to say here is not based on concepts of misrepresenting suicidality as the meaningless symptom of a brain defect.
This is what the care and laws should be founded upon. I may not speak for every single suicidal individual but I speak for many when I state:
* feeling suicidal and suicidality is the worst state of conscious existence
* suicidality is the worst form of mental pain
* suicidality is feeling and facing things worse than death
* feeling suicidal is the pain no one should ever face in life
* it is pain and despair and hopelessness too horrifically beyond awful to exist
* the weak, fragile and sensitive cannot survive any conditions and circumstances of life. At some point life stops being worth living. At some point the conditions and circumstances of life becomes worse than death
* life is not meant to be about facing any amount of suffering and any amount of brutalities for any amount of time. At some point the weak, fragile and sensitive are beyond the limit to suffering beyond which death becomes a welcomed solution
* suicidality is very near if not the top of the list of things that anyone who has the capacity to feel universally and completely refuse to feel, be made to feel and be forced to suffer and endure against one’s will
* becoming suicidal is the pain I should never face in life and you should never bear me to face in life
* it is a profoundly pitch black darkness of existence that no one should ever face in life
These statements are things that don’t matter to you only until you find out what pain and brutalities makes death a welcomed solution.
These statements are the most rudimentary competency to have empathy and understanding for the suicidal mind. These are why suicidality is meant to be prevented, protected against and limited. These statements are about a basis of compassion that inevitably destroys the acceptability of suicidality as acceptable consequences and the freedom to inflict, prolong and worsen suicidality indefinitely (not an explicit freedom like freedom from torture but it’s a freedom innate to human nature to want to brutalise suicidal individuals). Irrespective of the reason or reasons to die these are the consequences suicidal individuals face that often leads to the decision to use one’s own death to stand in harms way of these unbearable consequences in the statements above. These statements when seen as statements of natural pain, weakness and diversity refer to things that can be associated with brain differences – this is one of the most important things to recognise because it creates the better future for suicidal individuals and anyone else who has the capacity to feel. These statements and this basis for compassion and morality are what defines what you can and cannot bear to do to a suicidal individual – it is different from the morality that comes from seeing mental illness and exists today. The laws are cruel and brutal because they’re based on seeing mental illness. They will always be cruel when they’re based on seeing mental illness.
You cannot expect me to suffer more. You cannot expect me to be forced to suffer and endure against my will anymore. This is about the pain I should never face in life. The necessity of assisted suicide is this. I get to limit my suicidality and suffering. I do understand that there are risks involved but the necessity of assisted suicide is overwhelming. The tragedies of my existence are so extreme that I also see another purpose of assisted suicide and that’s safety from the evil, brutal and inhumane nature of human nature. This is another overwhelming necessity of assisted suicide that you never want to face. Human nature is so brutal and unlimited in their brutalities – this is what is responsible for me feeling suicidal for thousands of days. This is because I am too alone in knowing the pain I should never face in life. When you know this pain like I do then you’ll see why death by consent is not the worst thing possible. The curse of my existence is to be so much better off having never been born than live to face this. The curse of my existence is because of why the monsters who call themselves the human race cannot make any other choices but those that leads to my unlimited suicidality. Whenever and wherever they accept suicidality as acceptable consequences I am cursed to be born – only when you are devoid of the competency to have empathy and understanding for the suicidal mind do you not recognise that we have this in common. (This competency refuses suicidality as acceptable consequences and if you are so desperate to make certain that suicidal individuals don’t die then you have to find methods to stand in harms way of the brutalities that causes suicidality, inflicts, prolongs and worsens suicidality indefinitely. Your greatest blessings you can give suicidal individuals is what makes the necessity of assisted suicide unnecessary. “He’s suffered too much already and been brutalised too much already” – for any suicidal individual and any amount of suicidality this is meant to be your mentality and instinctive compassion. You can hate my morality for accepting death by consent as acceptable consequences but your morality, your mentality, your ideology of compassion and your basis for care brutalises suicidal individuals to death by accepting suicidality as acceptable consequences. You don’t seek to find empathy and understanding for the mentally ill – that’s the damnation of every single suicidal individual.
My unlimited suicidality would be completely impossible and wholly unbearable and completely unacceptable to all if human nature is not so constantly and consistently monstrous and brutal to suicidal individuals throughout history and to this day. My unlimited suicidality is only possible because the monsters who call themselves the human race want nothing to limit the brutalities they can do to a suicidal individual. The protection of assisted suicide is a necessary and humane protection without equal because it always prevents and limits the unlimited suffering and unlimited brutalities that comes naturally to human nature to want to achieve and achieve in the name of a brutal sense of care that’s so far the complete opposite of being humane.
(What you can and cannot bear to do to a suicidal individual affects my life and pain so much and too much and that’s why my safety in death matters so much to me.)
No life is meant to be lived to face any amount of suffering and any amount of brutalities for any amount of time – there are things worse than death by consent and there are things worth using one’s own death to stand in harms way of. Psychiatric and mental health care and laws have no limit to the brutalities that can be done to a suicidal individual so the protection of assisted suicide is only more invaluable to stand in harms way of such a brutal sense of care and the evil, brutal and inhumane nature of human nature that defines all who accepts suicidality as acceptable consequences and believes that making suicidality as unlimited as possible is care.
(The monsters who call themselves the human race could have made other choices but psychiatric and mental health care and laws want nothing to limit the brutalities that can be done to a suicidal individual. They really do need to brutalise me as much as possible in life and need to make certain that nothing stops them from doing the brutalities that comes naturally to human nature to want to do – that’s how they perfect the amount of time I spend feeling suicidal and being made to feel suicidal by the true purpose of denying me the only protection that stands in harms way.)
A tormented soul and a journey of thinking a decade old - for the truth that neither care nor science exists whenever and wherever psychiatry exists. (I wasn't born to be normal and they have never stopped brutalising me because of this.) 